Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (TV Series)

Eternal Relief from Pain (2020)

Lindsay Pulsipher: Kim Rollins

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• Kim Rollins : Amanda, Daddy can stay, right?

  Jim Rollins : [seeing her reluctance]  I know you have trust issues, but I'll sleep in my damn car if I have to. I want to see all of my grandchildren.

  Amanda Rollins : [with a groan]  All right. You can stay for one night, if you don't mind sharing the couch with Frannie. Hey, but my house, my rules.

  Kim Rollins : Uh-huh.

  Jim Rollins : Okay, baby. All right, let's see what you have to drink around here.

  [opening the fridge] 

  Jim Rollins : All I see is... milk and orange juice?

  Amanda Rollins : Yeah, it's a sober house, and for Kim, it's gonna stay that way.

• Amanda Rollins : So, where did you go? 'Cause Mama said she didn't hear from you, either.

  Kim Rollins : I wanted to show that I could make it on my own, you know, so I moved back in with that lawyer you introduced me to.

  Amanda Rollins : Lorenzo?

  Kim Rollins : Uh-huh.

  Amanda Rollins : So he's your son's father?

  Kim Rollins : No. When he found that out, it kind of blew that up. But, uh, I wound up moving into a shelter, having the baby on my own.

  Amanda Rollins : And getting high on fentanyl and heroin?

  Kim Rollins : It wasn't like that.

• Kim Rollins : [in the hospital after overdosing]  Amanda, how's Mason? Did you find out where he is?

  Amanda Rollins : He's at Child Services right now.

  Kim Rollins : Don't look at me like that. I feel bad enough as it is.

  Amanda Rollins : Yeah, you should. You left him with a stranger so that you could go do drugs.

  Kim Rollins : Well, I ran the sink, so somebody would come in if I ODed.

  Amanda Rollins : That's your idea of a great plan?

  Kim Rollins : Uh-huh.

  Amanda Rollins : Sorry. Yelling at you is not gonna do anything right now, is it?

  Kim Rollins : It's okay. I deserve it.

  Amanda Rollins : It's just, I haven't seen you for two years.

  Kim Rollins : It was three, actually. I was trying not to bother you.

  Amanda Rollins : And I was worried sick about you. One minute we're living together and you've got your bipolar under control. You turned a corner, Kim. You turned a corner!

  Kim Rollins : That's the thing. That's the thing! It was under control. But I was feeling so good, I-I just, I didn't have to take all those meds.

  Amanda Rollins : Oh, Kim!

  Kim Rollins : I quit cold turkey. You know, I started partying a little, but I knew you didn't want that around Jesse, so I...

  Amanda Rollins : So you disappeared.

  Kim Rollins : At least I didn't sell all your stuff this time.

  Amanda Rollins : Well, we have that, don't we?

• Kim Rollins : I had to take a drug test every two weeks. I was clean my whole pregnancy.

  Amanda Rollins : Thank God for that.

  Kim Rollins : But I had a Cesarean and it got infected. They gave me something for the pain.

  Amanda Rollins : Two years ago.

  Kim Rollins : Yeah, well, once you start those pills, they are so hard to stop. I found another doctor who understood that, but even then, it was so expensive.

  Amanda Rollins : So you do cheaper street drugs, and who knows what's in those, and Kim, you are supposed to be drug-free.

  Kim Rollins : I know. They're gonna send me back to prison, but what about Mason? You have to help me.

  Amanda Rollins : I don't know what I can do.

  Kim Rollins : What about other people? They get deals, don't they?

  Amanda Rollins : Yeah, they flip on somebody, they give the D.A. something that they want, but I don't think giving up your dealer is gonna help right now.

  Kim Rollins : Not my dealer, my doctor.

  Amanda Rollins : Oh, come...

  Kim Rollins : Once he knew I was hooked, he wouldn't prescribe me Oxy unless I had sex with him.

• Kim Rollins : My doctor, Paul Capezio, is writin' tons of illegal prescriptions all day long, $100 a pop.

  Olivia Benson : Okay, so, we can tell the DEA and have them look into it. But Amanda said that... that you didn't pay?

  Kim Rollins : H-He-He said he'd accept barter, by which he meant sex.

  Odafin Tutuola : When was this?

  Kim Rollins : First time, Mason was four months. You know, my OB-GYN said no more pills. Someone at the shelter vouched for me to Capezio. I paid a few times 'til I couldn't afford it, and then he gave me a few samples and said next time, I'd have to give him something.

  Olivia Benson : I'm so sorry.

  Kim Rollins : Yeah, well, next time I came in, he said take off your clothes, get warmed up. Well, he took out a needle, gave himself a shot down there.

  Olivia Benson : An ED drug. So, then what happened?

  Kim Rollins : Five minutes later, he climbed on top of me, right there on the exam table. You know, I was staring at the fluorescent lights on the ceiling. It was over quick. Afterward, he wrote me a prescription. Said I could come in whenever.

  Olivia Benson : And how many times did this happen, Kim?

  Kim Rollins : A dozen, maybe more? I mean, you know, I really did try to kick it. I was... but I was living in a shelter, and... and Mason, was crying all the time, and... I was barely hanging on by a thread. And I just couldn't stomach doing it with Capezio anymore. Turned out it was cheaper to buy it on the street anyway.

  Odafin Tutuola : How'd you pass the drug tests?

  Kim Rollins : Where there is a will, there is a way, 'til this last time. If you want, I-I can go back to Capezio. You all can catch him in the act.

  Olivia Benson : We're not gonna ask you to do that.

  Kim Rollins : Well, if you did arrest him, you know, it would really help me with my situation. Uh, is Mr. Barba still the D.A.?

  Odafin Tutuola : No, it's Carisi now.

  Kim Rollins : Oh, that's really good news. He was always really nice to me.

• Kim Rollins : Where's Amanda? She wouldn't come?

  Olivia Benson : It's just us, Kim. It's simpler.

  Kim Rollins : Well, I-I-I really appreciate you two talking to me.

  Olivia Benson : So, Amanda said you had something you wanted to tell us about your doctor.

  Kim Rollins : If I do that, uh, you guys can get me out of here?

  Odafin Tutuola : So you can get high again?

  Kim Rollins : Look, I can pick it up and I can put it down. I just need to get my son back.

  Odafin Tutuola : Okay, let's hear it. We're not making promises.

• Kim Rollins : Hey, Amanda, it's me. I know. Long time, no speak, right? Hey, look, I'm in trouble. I, uh, failed a drug test today, and if they revoke my parole... I-I have a kid now, a son. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but, uh, you... uh, can you call me back, please? I could really use your advice on something. Um, okay, thank you. I love you! Bye!

• Jim Rollins : Nothing sweeter than watching kids sleep, is there? I remember watching you two fall off.

  Amanda Rollins : Not that you were home that much.

  Kim Rollins : Amanda.

  Jim Rollins : It's all right. Let her get it off her chest. Now, when can I see my grandson? I can't wait to get my hands on him.

  Amanda Rollins : He is at Child Services tonight, but we'll go to court tomorrow, and hopefully, they'll release him to my custody.

  Jim Rollins : I can't wait to meet him.

  Kim Rollins : Yeah, you will.

• Kim Rollins : Not that I don't appreciate you getting me out, Amanda, but that means I don't get custody of my own son?

  Amanda Rollins : Benson is trying to talk family court into giving me temporary custody of Mason, Kim.

  Kim Rollins : Well, when can I see him?

  Amanda Rollins : We're... we're trying to work that out, too.

• Amanda Rollins : Kim, you know a condition of your release is that you can't be around other addicts.

  Jim Rollins : Addict? I might have a beer every once in a while, but Daddy's turned over a new leaf. Gotta stay healthy for my new young fiancee.

  Kim Rollins : Daddy, you're getting married again?

  Jim Rollins : Yeah, third time's a charm. You two are gonna love her. Like meeting a third sister you didn't know you had.

  Amanda Rollins : Oh, my god. Do you even hear yourself?

  Kim Rollins : Amanda.

  Jim Rollins : So, you gonna take me up and show me your fancy New York apartment?

  Amanda Rollins : No, I don't think that's a good idea.

  Kim Rollins : Daddy just drove all the way from Georgia.

  Jim Rollins : It's all right. I get it. I know I made mistakes, burned some bridges. But I just hope it's not too late to make it up to both of you. And my grandchildren.

  Amanda Rollins : [reluctantly]  You can come up, but you cannot stay.

• Kim Rollins : Daddy!

  Jim Rollins : Angel Face, what a sight for sore eyes. I've been driving 13 hours.

  Kim Rollins : Yeah.

  Jim Rollins : Amanda? Honey, they are working you to death.

  Amanda Rollins : Well, no one's gonna say the same of you. What are you doing here?

  Jim Rollins : Your little sister needed help.

  Amanda Rollins : How'd you know that?

  Kim Rollins : Well, when I couldn't reach you at the pizza place, I-I called Daddy; you know, I needed somebody to take care of Mason.

  Jim Rollins : Now I got both my girls back. I feel like a king with a royal flush. I can't wait to meet my grandbabies.

• Amanda Rollins : [finding her father on the couch coughing]  Daddy?

  Kim Rollins : What's going on?

  Amanda Rollins : Kim, get the kids. Get them out of here. Come on, come on, come on. Come on!

  [catching Jim as he collapses] 

  Amanda Rollins : Daddy. Hey, hey, hey! Daddy? Daddy? Stop. Oh!

  [taking out her phone] 

  Amanda Rollins : Hey. Uh, 355 West 117. Detective Rollins. I've got a-a 60-year-old man, a possible OD of... of drugs and alcohol.

• Kim Rollins : I miss Mason so much. What if they don't give me custody?

  Odafin Tutuola : It's not you getting custody.

  Amanda Rollins : She knows that.

  Odafin Tutuola : Yeah, I hope she also knows you're very lucky your sister is NYPD. That carries a lot of weight. But one more mistake, Kim, you and your son, you're out of chances.

• Olivia Benson : Hey, how's he doing?

  Amanda Rollins : Not good. They gave him Narcan, he's coming out of it, but...

  Kim Rollins : But they said we can't see him yet.

  Olivia Benson : Yeah. The kids?

  Amanda Rollins : I had my nanny come over, but I don't know how long this is gonna be.

  Olivia Benson : Okay. I'm off shift. I can go pick them up, they can stay with me.

  Kim Rollins : A-Are we gonna get jammed up over this?

  Amanda Rollins : Are you kidding me, Kim? Yeah, Daddy had a scrip for the drugs, but as soon as family court hears about this, they will take Mason back.

  Kim Rollins : Oh, no! What about my parole? I-Is that gonna mess that up, too?

  Olivia Benson : Kim, let's just take it one day at a time now, okay?

• Kim Rollins : I think that was a wake-up call to dad. He really heard it.

  Amanda Rollins : Do you?

  Kim Rollins : You're not gonna kick him out, right?

  Amanda Rollins : He can't stay at my house with my kids.

• Kim Rollins : [seeing Jim's hospital bed empty]  Oh, my god, what happened to Daddy? Is he dead?

  Nurse : No, honey. He pulled the IV out of his arm and just walked out.

  Amanda Rollins : Did he say anything?

  Nurse : I found this by his bed.

  Amanda Rollins : [taking the note]  "Sorry I didn't say goodbye. They tried to talk me into some tests, taking better care of myself. I love you both, but you know how the song goes. 'Papa was a rolling stone'."

• Amanda Rollins : My nanny's cousin came over. She'll take the next shift.

  Kim Rollins : Takes a village, doesn't it?

  Amanda Rollins : Hey, Kim, I gotta ask you, what happens next? I mean, how is all this gonna work? Because I gotta tell you, I have no idea.

  Kim Rollins : Well, it's like Olivia said. One day at a time. Daddy's gonna wake up. We're gonna hug him. We're gonna be so thankful he didn't die.

  Amanda Rollins : This time.

  Kim Rollins : He did drive all the way from Georgia when I called.

  Amanda Rollins : You're his daughter. That's what parents are supposed to do.

  Kim Rollins : I know it's hard to forgive him, but can I tell you something that I learned in group, when I was in prison? You know, most inmates come from toxic parents. But if you're gonna heal, you gotta love something about where you came from.